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nada bin-yada
Oct. 6th, 2009 | 11:32 am
it's tuesday.
i worked most of the weekend and now i have a day off. so does tres so after my nap we'll be hanging out together.
couple of messages on the voice mail but i'm too scared to listen to them, one for sure is from sephora. i might have tres listen and then interpret.
i watched real housewives of atlanta last night and it made me puke in my mouth a little bit. auto-tune is an invention of the devil, and disgusting, lavish wealth is his side project.
fayfay
i worked most of the weekend and now i have a day off. so does tres so after my nap we'll be hanging out together.
couple of messages on the voice mail but i'm too scared to listen to them, one for sure is from sephora. i might have tres listen and then interpret.
i watched real housewives of atlanta last night and it made me puke in my mouth a little bit. auto-tune is an invention of the devil, and disgusting, lavish wealth is his side project.
fayfay
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something's wrong
Aug. 26th, 2009 | 10:30 pm
i don't know what it is but something is wrong.
i'm starting to freak out that i'm going to die. or tres is going to die. or my mom.
isn't it weird that i'm unemployed and i have all this free time to spend with the two most important people in my life? i'm nervous that my mom, who is 65 and is in pretty good health other than her mind that slips from time to time, is going to die. i feel like it's too much of a coincidence that i have so much time off to spend with her. we see each other twice a week if not more, and i know that this will never happen again (unless she babysits for us before she completely loses her mind). everytime i see her these days i tell her i love her and hug her because i have this impending doom feeling.
maybe tres is going to die on the mountian this weekend. tonight i was looking out the front porch window and i had a perfect view of longs peak and the key hole (not gonna lie - i don't know what the keyhole is but i think it's a big groove at the summit of longs peak). i started to think...two to five people die on longs peak every year. so far there's only been two people in 2009 that have met their fate. the stars have a way of aligning themselves for me...what if something happens to tres and i have to look at the mountain everyday from my porch? i'll have to move, surely i will, if something were to happen. i don't know, i can't explain it really but it's like an ironic ending or twist in a tragic novel. girl meets boy, gets boy, has to view range where boy died on mountain for rest of her life.
then there's me. i can't help but think that god is giving me a break right now to say goodbye to everyone. hell i'm going to a depeche mode concert tomorrow so perhaps it will be on the drive home. every windfall i see as "oh that's because god wants me to be graced for the few short days i have left." anytime i see someone i haven't seen in a while i see it as a chance to say goodbye. i think i have to talk to rhonda about this. i know i'm being irrational but what if i'm not? what if three months from now, you're all saying, "it's a good thing she wasn't working so she could spend her last few months with her friends and family."
maybe it's all the death talk my mom is having about herself and her best friend who, btw, she saved her life. my mom saved her friend's life i mean. my mom accompanied her friend, norma, to a lawyer to draw up her (norma's) last will and testament. shockingly she left my mom executor which my mom tried to back out of, graciously. anyway, it's all the two of them have been able to talk about lately.
uncle ed pulled through again and left my mom and i some more money. i don't know how much but my mom said we can either go to utah and get me some well deserved furniture at ikea or she's going to take tres and i on a cruise in january or february. if i book the cruise, it wouldn't be fair for god to take any of us right now. maybe it's my saving grace.
fayfay
i'm starting to freak out that i'm going to die. or tres is going to die. or my mom.
isn't it weird that i'm unemployed and i have all this free time to spend with the two most important people in my life? i'm nervous that my mom, who is 65 and is in pretty good health other than her mind that slips from time to time, is going to die. i feel like it's too much of a coincidence that i have so much time off to spend with her. we see each other twice a week if not more, and i know that this will never happen again (unless she babysits for us before she completely loses her mind). everytime i see her these days i tell her i love her and hug her because i have this impending doom feeling.
maybe tres is going to die on the mountian this weekend. tonight i was looking out the front porch window and i had a perfect view of longs peak and the key hole (not gonna lie - i don't know what the keyhole is but i think it's a big groove at the summit of longs peak). i started to think...two to five people die on longs peak every year. so far there's only been two people in 2009 that have met their fate. the stars have a way of aligning themselves for me...what if something happens to tres and i have to look at the mountain everyday from my porch? i'll have to move, surely i will, if something were to happen. i don't know, i can't explain it really but it's like an ironic ending or twist in a tragic novel. girl meets boy, gets boy, has to view range where boy died on mountain for rest of her life.
then there's me. i can't help but think that god is giving me a break right now to say goodbye to everyone. hell i'm going to a depeche mode concert tomorrow so perhaps it will be on the drive home. every windfall i see as "oh that's because god wants me to be graced for the few short days i have left." anytime i see someone i haven't seen in a while i see it as a chance to say goodbye. i think i have to talk to rhonda about this. i know i'm being irrational but what if i'm not? what if three months from now, you're all saying, "it's a good thing she wasn't working so she could spend her last few months with her friends and family."
maybe it's all the death talk my mom is having about herself and her best friend who, btw, she saved her life. my mom saved her friend's life i mean. my mom accompanied her friend, norma, to a lawyer to draw up her (norma's) last will and testament. shockingly she left my mom executor which my mom tried to back out of, graciously. anyway, it's all the two of them have been able to talk about lately.
uncle ed pulled through again and left my mom and i some more money. i don't know how much but my mom said we can either go to utah and get me some well deserved furniture at ikea or she's going to take tres and i on a cruise in january or february. if i book the cruise, it wouldn't be fair for god to take any of us right now. maybe it's my saving grace.
fayfay
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tomorrow i turn 33
Jul. 5th, 2009 | 09:42 pm
technically i'll be middle-aged tomorrow. assuming i die in my mid-sixties.
not going to lie, i was folding my laundry tonight thinking about my birthday tomorrow. i can't believe i'm going to be three decades and three years old. for most of the year i thought i was turning 34 but luckily my next door neighbor lisa corrected me. my biggest fear right now is that i'm getting old and won't be able to have the baby i so desperately want and think about everyday. if i can't have her biologically i am completely open to adopting a child since i myself was adopted.
a lot has changed for me through the past year. i'm unemployed now, but secretly loving it, and i'm in a fabulous new relationship with tres. i'm not sure if he's my soul mate, if there is even such a thing, but i know i love him dearly and want to grow old with him, after having a beautiful family together. it's completely different than the relationship that i had with david. with tres i feel as though i have that missing component, that passionate link that makes everything previous seem primitive in comparison. we have a long, long way to go and though i don't believe we'll ever be married, i think we'll be together for a long time. i hope that kids are in our future but if they're not, i'm not going to discount the tremendous love we still have for one another.
my mom and i have recently reconnected which is great. i have to admit i have a sadness in my heart, thinking that the only reason i got laid off and have spent so much time with her is because one of us is going to leave this world soon. i talk about that with rhonda frequently and she confirms my opinion that it is something i can't worry about. it's all in god's hands and i have to trust him in whatever path he chooses for both of us.
my relationship with david couldn't be much better. he has a girlfriend now, which i thought would bother me a lot more than it does but it doesn't. we talk off and on, and i'm going to see bob and kay at the end of this month for bob's birthday. i'm so glad they are still a part of my life because i love them dearly and they are such special people. i was thinking the other day...when and if i go into labor, would it be inappropriate to have tres, lisa, my mom and david and kay in the delivery room? i should consider myself so lucky to have so many people around me that i love and care for. i'm not sure if i want all of them to be there when i have my pants down though!!
running is going really well. i can now run almost 1.9 miles without having an asthma attack or having to stop for a stretch. i ran the farthest i've ever ran yesterday and tomorrow i hope to duplicate my record. i'm still stuck at 125 pounds which sucks but at least i'm in shape, kind of.
tres gave me an ipod dock that he hasn't used for a while. i'm currently listening to: new eminem, "bagpipes from baghdad," alias, "no perfect world," nickelback "savin' me," and cher "walking in memphis." cheers to 32!
ciao for now,
tinyfay
not going to lie, i was folding my laundry tonight thinking about my birthday tomorrow. i can't believe i'm going to be three decades and three years old. for most of the year i thought i was turning 34 but luckily my next door neighbor lisa corrected me. my biggest fear right now is that i'm getting old and won't be able to have the baby i so desperately want and think about everyday. if i can't have her biologically i am completely open to adopting a child since i myself was adopted.
a lot has changed for me through the past year. i'm unemployed now, but secretly loving it, and i'm in a fabulous new relationship with tres. i'm not sure if he's my soul mate, if there is even such a thing, but i know i love him dearly and want to grow old with him, after having a beautiful family together. it's completely different than the relationship that i had with david. with tres i feel as though i have that missing component, that passionate link that makes everything previous seem primitive in comparison. we have a long, long way to go and though i don't believe we'll ever be married, i think we'll be together for a long time. i hope that kids are in our future but if they're not, i'm not going to discount the tremendous love we still have for one another.
my mom and i have recently reconnected which is great. i have to admit i have a sadness in my heart, thinking that the only reason i got laid off and have spent so much time with her is because one of us is going to leave this world soon. i talk about that with rhonda frequently and she confirms my opinion that it is something i can't worry about. it's all in god's hands and i have to trust him in whatever path he chooses for both of us.
my relationship with david couldn't be much better. he has a girlfriend now, which i thought would bother me a lot more than it does but it doesn't. we talk off and on, and i'm going to see bob and kay at the end of this month for bob's birthday. i'm so glad they are still a part of my life because i love them dearly and they are such special people. i was thinking the other day...when and if i go into labor, would it be inappropriate to have tres, lisa, my mom and david and kay in the delivery room? i should consider myself so lucky to have so many people around me that i love and care for. i'm not sure if i want all of them to be there when i have my pants down though!!
running is going really well. i can now run almost 1.9 miles without having an asthma attack or having to stop for a stretch. i ran the farthest i've ever ran yesterday and tomorrow i hope to duplicate my record. i'm still stuck at 125 pounds which sucks but at least i'm in shape, kind of.
tres gave me an ipod dock that he hasn't used for a while. i'm currently listening to: new eminem, "bagpipes from baghdad," alias, "no perfect world," nickelback "savin' me," and cher "walking in memphis." cheers to 32!
ciao for now,
tinyfay
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birdie baby mumma
May. 15th, 2009 | 10:10 pm
lisa doesn't give a shit because the bird doesn't have anything to do with dean (although i named her "deana").
d thinks it's cute but doesn't have time to chit chat because of his new GIRLFRIEND.
tres thinks i'm nuts and am projecting my feelings of wanting a baby onto a wild bird.
my mom called me crazy and over protective - probably when i went screaming into the front yard flapping my arms to scare away some sparrows that got too close to deana.
my neighbors offer me a drink and then back away slowly when i insist they come over and quietly stare at the nest.
my co-workers at michaels are being supportive and encouraging me to be more social.
and me? i'm liking my new found, albeit temporary calling.
when lawn doctor came to spray yesterday i made sure to show the tech where the nest was and made him swear that he'd be extra careful around the tree. i wonder how many days until it's "a'hatchin'" time. i'm guessing six. i'm going to feel really anxious about leaving them next week, i'm off to nebraska thursday friday and then i fly to kansas city on memorial day.
my mom bought me earplugs. for the cuckoo clocks.
fay
d thinks it's cute but doesn't have time to chit chat because of his new GIRLFRIEND.
tres thinks i'm nuts and am projecting my feelings of wanting a baby onto a wild bird.
my mom called me crazy and over protective - probably when i went screaming into the front yard flapping my arms to scare away some sparrows that got too close to deana.
my neighbors offer me a drink and then back away slowly when i insist they come over and quietly stare at the nest.
my co-workers at michaels are being supportive and encouraging me to be more social.
and me? i'm liking my new found, albeit temporary calling.
when lawn doctor came to spray yesterday i made sure to show the tech where the nest was and made him swear that he'd be extra careful around the tree. i wonder how many days until it's "a'hatchin'" time. i'm guessing six. i'm going to feel really anxious about leaving them next week, i'm off to nebraska thursday friday and then i fly to kansas city on memorial day.
my mom bought me earplugs. for the cuckoo clocks.
fay
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i am not a loser
May. 7th, 2009 | 11:05 am
it is getting increasingly difficult to find reasons to get up in the morning. my typical day is sleeping in, going to the reservoir, applying for a job (and i use the term "a" loosely), surfing the internet, cleaning my house, eating a little something, going back to bed, having a drink, playing with the girls, and attempting one real life meaningful conversation face-to-face. sometimes i read, sometimes i work in the yard, sometimes i watch tv, sometimes i cook for tres or my neighbors. all in all it's just BORING and i'm going CRAZY with every passing day.
i have to hand it to my mom and lisa and tres, and some old co-workers from ann taylor. without their encouragement i don't think i'd be showering every day or trying to maintain contact with the outside world. unless i'm going to work at michaels, or driving down to golden or broomfield to see lisa or tres, i don't really leave the confines of my neighborhood except to go to safeway or the library. the upside is that i've only filled up my gas tank once in the past two weeks.
i have 48 more weeks of unemployment. i'm afraid if i'm out of the workforce too long, i'll lose my edge or never go back altogether. god i really don't want to go back to retail, i just want a job where i can sit at a desk and get bossed around all day doing trivial things but get to keep a picture of ali in a nice frame next to my computer. is that so much to ask??!!
i'm going to go see a movie this afternoon. i've decided. i'm going by myself and i'm going to have a GOOD time.
ciao for now,
fay
i have to hand it to my mom and lisa and tres, and some old co-workers from ann taylor. without their encouragement i don't think i'd be showering every day or trying to maintain contact with the outside world. unless i'm going to work at michaels, or driving down to golden or broomfield to see lisa or tres, i don't really leave the confines of my neighborhood except to go to safeway or the library. the upside is that i've only filled up my gas tank once in the past two weeks.
i have 48 more weeks of unemployment. i'm afraid if i'm out of the workforce too long, i'll lose my edge or never go back altogether. god i really don't want to go back to retail, i just want a job where i can sit at a desk and get bossed around all day doing trivial things but get to keep a picture of ali in a nice frame next to my computer. is that so much to ask??!!
i'm going to go see a movie this afternoon. i've decided. i'm going by myself and i'm going to have a GOOD time.
ciao for now,
fay
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officially converted!!
Apr. 29th, 2009 | 11:19 am
tres signed me up for a converter box coupon which i finally got in the mail the day before last. the coupon looked like a credit card (what a WASTE and i'm so GLAD that our government is going green) and was good for $40. all the converter boxes at best buy were at least $50 which makes sense, everyone gets their pockets filled - bastards. anyway, i got my box, brought it home, and hooked it up myself, sans directions. ali was more interested in sitting on them in the box so i couldn't bring myself to disturb her "fun."
i'm on my sixth lap around the reservoir and beating my time everyday. i can't possibly walk any faster so i guess i'm going to have to start jogging which i'm not completely opposed to. i'm a little worried i'll have an asthma attack (which i haven't had one in a long long time) because i'm not doing that well with the whole quitting smoking project. i've gotten used to not smoking when i'm by myself but the second i'm next door or with tres i'm lightin' one up.
mark's in town. he sent me a text message. it said, "just to let you know i just got back into town." i replied, "wow did you send that to all 400+ people? was denise busy today?" i felt like a bitch for about 2.5 seconds. then he texted back, "just wanted you to know." that was it. i let it go. gotta let it go even if he can't.
got my last check from ann taylor. i put it in savings and on friday i'm going to pay an extra mortgage payment so i'll be paid on the car and the house through july. by then i should be ahead enough on my unemployment that i can live stabley, if not comfortably. hopefully i'll have a job by then.
fay
i'm on my sixth lap around the reservoir and beating my time everyday. i can't possibly walk any faster so i guess i'm going to have to start jogging which i'm not completely opposed to. i'm a little worried i'll have an asthma attack (which i haven't had one in a long long time) because i'm not doing that well with the whole quitting smoking project. i've gotten used to not smoking when i'm by myself but the second i'm next door or with tres i'm lightin' one up.
mark's in town. he sent me a text message. it said, "just to let you know i just got back into town." i replied, "wow did you send that to all 400+ people? was denise busy today?" i felt like a bitch for about 2.5 seconds. then he texted back, "just wanted you to know." that was it. i let it go. gotta let it go even if he can't.
got my last check from ann taylor. i put it in savings and on friday i'm going to pay an extra mortgage payment so i'll be paid on the car and the house through july. by then i should be ahead enough on my unemployment that i can live stabley, if not comfortably. hopefully i'll have a job by then.
fay
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lawnning
Apr. 23rd, 2009 | 10:29 am
i made up my own verb: lawnning. to work on one's lawn.
i'm fairly surprised i haven't been toling away on my journal lately since i have what, about 16 hours a day to kill with nothing really to do but clean and surf the internet. i would say watch tv but almost everyone has gone digital now and i still haven't received my coupon for a converter box in the mail yet. ali's getting a bath almost everyday and we go outside together, she on her leash, carefully tied around a ring on the front porch. she is beginning to love her outdoor time with mumma! today she will have a lot since we have a lot to do.
tad took my mower blade off my mower and sharpened it, and then taught me how to drain my oil and replace it with new oil. he saved me $46 so he's my new best friend. anyway, now my mower is set to go for the summer and i got my edger out so i'm all set. today i'm going to mow and edge, last night i think i was giddy before i fell asleep. i don't know if it's so much the actual task or having a reason to get up in the morning.
my mom came over the day before yesterday to help me do some yardwork. i thought we'd just be cleaning up dog crap and getting rid of the old leaves that had fallen in the northeast corner of the backyard but she was more into the SHOVELING ROCKS and ripping out old weed guard. yesterday i couldn't even go to the lake because i was so sore. my back, my knees, my arms, everything. it hurt to shower!!
i still haven't figured out twitter.
fay
i'm fairly surprised i haven't been toling away on my journal lately since i have what, about 16 hours a day to kill with nothing really to do but clean and surf the internet. i would say watch tv but almost everyone has gone digital now and i still haven't received my coupon for a converter box in the mail yet. ali's getting a bath almost everyday and we go outside together, she on her leash, carefully tied around a ring on the front porch. she is beginning to love her outdoor time with mumma! today she will have a lot since we have a lot to do.
tad took my mower blade off my mower and sharpened it, and then taught me how to drain my oil and replace it with new oil. he saved me $46 so he's my new best friend. anyway, now my mower is set to go for the summer and i got my edger out so i'm all set. today i'm going to mow and edge, last night i think i was giddy before i fell asleep. i don't know if it's so much the actual task or having a reason to get up in the morning.
my mom came over the day before yesterday to help me do some yardwork. i thought we'd just be cleaning up dog crap and getting rid of the old leaves that had fallen in the northeast corner of the backyard but she was more into the SHOVELING ROCKS and ripping out old weed guard. yesterday i couldn't even go to the lake because i was so sore. my back, my knees, my arms, everything. it hurt to shower!!
i still haven't figured out twitter.
fay
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not a good update
Jan. 23rd, 2009 | 11:50 pm
i don't feel like updating the rest of my missouri story. i don't know why but i just don't.
i think i'm freaking out because i'm about to get laid off.
i'm freaking out because i've gained 6 pounds from taking estrogen so i can have a baby.
i'm freaking out because i had to have some invasive tooth cleaning that cost me close to $600 and i don't have that kind of cash to throw around. i wanted to buy a tv this month.
i went out to eat with my mom and d last night and she's convinced he is depressed and seeing what he's missing. he hugged me and told me he loved me.
i miss tres, we're kind of fighting right now, more me than him. we both had two days off and we didn't spend any time together. after i decided to plan an amazing valentine's day prom for him. going to cost me some cash, and take some time, but will be well worth it in the end. spendy, you're on the invite list.
fayfay
i think i'm freaking out because i'm about to get laid off.
i'm freaking out because i've gained 6 pounds from taking estrogen so i can have a baby.
i'm freaking out because i had to have some invasive tooth cleaning that cost me close to $600 and i don't have that kind of cash to throw around. i wanted to buy a tv this month.
i went out to eat with my mom and d last night and she's convinced he is depressed and seeing what he's missing. he hugged me and told me he loved me.
i miss tres, we're kind of fighting right now, more me than him. we both had two days off and we didn't spend any time together. after i decided to plan an amazing valentine's day prom for him. going to cost me some cash, and take some time, but will be well worth it in the end. spendy, you're on the invite list.
fayfay
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here's an update!
Jan. 17th, 2009 | 11:43 pm
i guess this would be the intro to my trip to missouri...
on friday morning ali decided to find a mouse in my closet and threw one hell of a monkey wrench into my day and it's planned out events. the mouse, named deveraux, was captured unharmed (but shaken i'm sure) by me and my oven mitt, and placed in the outgoing garbage container.
i flew to kansas city. kc has an amazing airport. i was off the plane and into the car within i swear to god, thirty yards. i called tres and he said, "i'm outside baby," and boom, i was in the car. fanstastic. no train rides no walks down endless terminals.
the kiss i gave him should have been more enthusiastic since little did i know i wouldn't be touching, let alone kissing him for the next three days.
we drove to blue springs, where his dad's parents live. cute couple, in their mid 80s, ruby and dale. they loved me and when ruby hugged me hello i told her i hadn't had a grandma in a long, long time. she assured me that she would always be there for me, grandma in the wings. dale has prostate cancer and wears a hearing aid, ruby refuses to wear hers, and is losing it a bit. she ranted on and on about larry flynt and his apparent cry for a bail out because his porn industry is failing. who knows, i hadn't heard about it but it must have made hardball.
after blue springs we drove back to columbia and made it there about 9 o'clock. tres mom, sam, lives in a nice, three bedroom, 1400 square foot home built probably around 2001. she smokes in her house. she also has a cuckoo clock, a grandfather, and a mantle clock. they go off on the hour, every hour. a bit strange and hard to get used to (picture me in the middle of the night waking up to "CUCKOO!!" at 3 am) but induring just the same.
all i remember from my first night in missouri is sam saying to me, "what kinda shows do ya like to watch fay?" and me replying, "i love steve carrel, i love the office," and her saying, "oh really? i don't like him, that's STUPID humor." also, her dog jake? he loved me. and she hated me for it. i learned right away to tell jake, "no down!" so as to not upset her.
more tomorrow.
ciao for now,
tinyfay
on friday morning ali decided to find a mouse in my closet and threw one hell of a monkey wrench into my day and it's planned out events. the mouse, named deveraux, was captured unharmed (but shaken i'm sure) by me and my oven mitt, and placed in the outgoing garbage container.
i flew to kansas city. kc has an amazing airport. i was off the plane and into the car within i swear to god, thirty yards. i called tres and he said, "i'm outside baby," and boom, i was in the car. fanstastic. no train rides no walks down endless terminals.
the kiss i gave him should have been more enthusiastic since little did i know i wouldn't be touching, let alone kissing him for the next three days.
we drove to blue springs, where his dad's parents live. cute couple, in their mid 80s, ruby and dale. they loved me and when ruby hugged me hello i told her i hadn't had a grandma in a long, long time. she assured me that she would always be there for me, grandma in the wings. dale has prostate cancer and wears a hearing aid, ruby refuses to wear hers, and is losing it a bit. she ranted on and on about larry flynt and his apparent cry for a bail out because his porn industry is failing. who knows, i hadn't heard about it but it must have made hardball.
after blue springs we drove back to columbia and made it there about 9 o'clock. tres mom, sam, lives in a nice, three bedroom, 1400 square foot home built probably around 2001. she smokes in her house. she also has a cuckoo clock, a grandfather, and a mantle clock. they go off on the hour, every hour. a bit strange and hard to get used to (picture me in the middle of the night waking up to "CUCKOO!!" at 3 am) but induring just the same.
all i remember from my first night in missouri is sam saying to me, "what kinda shows do ya like to watch fay?" and me replying, "i love steve carrel, i love the office," and her saying, "oh really? i don't like him, that's STUPID humor." also, her dog jake? he loved me. and she hated me for it. i learned right away to tell jake, "no down!" so as to not upset her.
more tomorrow.
ciao for now,
tinyfay
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two days off
Dec. 30th, 2008 | 03:25 pm
what i need to do over the next two days:
go to the dentist
pay my mortgage
transfer $40 from chase to 1stbank
turn my availability into michaels
get an oil change
go find my colorful kitty hair straightener
finish my moms scrapbook for christmas
make an appointment at the gyno to get a followup and get b/c pills prescribed
go see rhonda
make an appointment to get my carpet stretched
call the plumber and figure out the garbage disposal
make an appointment with the eye doctor for my contacts
finish my laundry
cash in one of my life insurance policies (no need for FOUR)
give millie back to d
see tres
get some rest
i typed out my list and am crossing things off as i do them, it's not like a couple of days off, it's really a bunch of shit i have to get done. i feel pretty guilty about not picking up a shift at michaels but i have to get all this random crap taken care of you know?
all i really want to do is see tres. he's sick - he has a cold - so he's hesitant to see me and the condition i'm under if i go down to see him tonight is that i have to wear a mask so i don't get sick. he's really paranoid right now because he leaves next tuesday for missourri, and i leave on friday to meet up with him. anyway, i miss him, terribly.
the winds were so terrible last night they woke me up three times. once at midnight, i heard someone's trash cans fly down the street, and my chairs on my front porch tip over. i let millie out at about a quarter after three, her ears were flying out behind her. my patio set - which i winterized by taking out the cushions and the umbrella - were blown off the patio and into the yard. i woke up again around five and just sat there with ali and shuddered as the house shook around us.
that's about it. can't wait to drop millie off and swiffer the downstairs about three times.
fayfay
go to the dentist
pay my mortgage
transfer $40 from chase to 1stbank
turn my availability into michaels
get an oil change
go find my colorful kitty hair straightener
finish my moms scrapbook for christmas
make an appointment at the gyno to get a followup and get b/c pills prescribed
go see rhonda
make an appointment to get my carpet stretched
call the plumber and figure out the garbage disposal
make an appointment with the eye doctor for my contacts
finish my laundry
cash in one of my life insurance policies (no need for FOUR)
give millie back to d
see tres
get some rest
i typed out my list and am crossing things off as i do them, it's not like a couple of days off, it's really a bunch of shit i have to get done. i feel pretty guilty about not picking up a shift at michaels but i have to get all this random crap taken care of you know?
all i really want to do is see tres. he's sick - he has a cold - so he's hesitant to see me and the condition i'm under if i go down to see him tonight is that i have to wear a mask so i don't get sick. he's really paranoid right now because he leaves next tuesday for missourri, and i leave on friday to meet up with him. anyway, i miss him, terribly.
the winds were so terrible last night they woke me up three times. once at midnight, i heard someone's trash cans fly down the street, and my chairs on my front porch tip over. i let millie out at about a quarter after three, her ears were flying out behind her. my patio set - which i winterized by taking out the cushions and the umbrella - were blown off the patio and into the yard. i woke up again around five and just sat there with ali and shuddered as the house shook around us.
that's about it. can't wait to drop millie off and swiffer the downstairs about three times.
fayfay
